I have become an unhealthy obese creature
with the type of body I do not want to feature.
Ugh! Let me hide under the rug.
I am saddened and ashamed of my size
as the numbers on my scale continue to rise.
Hate how my body is growing,
way too much fat is showing.
I have unhappily reached the point
that I must get out of this joint.
I don’t mean a building or room.
It’s time to get out of this fat tomb.
I must shed this weight,
before it is too late.
I cannot wait.
Tomorrow is the date.
I can’t start today,
can’t do it that way.
One more last hurrah with pizza, bad carbs, chips and pop,
Today is the Super bowl. After that, my bad eating will stop.
I promise. I mean it. I must be strong.
I need to lose weight. I waited too long.
I need to eat healthy and stop snacking.
Exercise is also something I am lacking.
I am going to eat healthy and less, and exercise too.
It’s not going to be easy, but is something I must do.
I must remember….
Nothing tastes as good,
as being thin feels.
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My Loud Whispers of Hope 
Yeah, I get it. Me too! However, I have learned that I look very unhealthy if I go below 120 lbs. A few years ago I wanted to be 110. I got to 118 and realized that the skin was sagging way too much and I actually started looking awful at 118. So now my goal is 120 min. Still will be flabby not not looking unhealthy, at least I hope.
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120 sounds like a great weight… only in my dreams. I don’t know if I ever weighed 120 in my life. We are all have our issues though and I understand that. I hope you make you r goal of 120. You probably look wonderful. Love and hugs, Sue
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my weight was 95 lbs until I was 28 and quit smoking. I always was too skinny. Now I realize people went on crazy diets to get that way. I was quite happy at 110, but then it kept going up! I’m actually very small boned, but at 140, 150 you can’t tell that. lol! Thank you.
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I think even being small boned that 140-150 is a great weight. Maybe you don’t feel it is for you, but it sounds like a healthy weight. I would love to weigh that much. Thank you for sharing. I love your comments. Thank you. Much love, Sue
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I’m in the same boat. As soon as I finish this package of caramels I have, I’m going to stop eating sweets. Good luck to us both! 🙂
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Good luck to you. You look like you do not need to lose weight though, but I understand needing to be healthy. I on the other hand really must lose weight. I am going to try again. Tomorrow is the big day. I cannot put it off any longer. I hope your mental health is good. Are you having ECTs again? I hope you do not have to but if you do I pray they go well and help you. They do help and were my life savers. Have a fabulous day. Much love, Sue
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My depression seems to be improving with the increased Prozac dose, as well as the increased time in front of the light box. However, I don’t yet know if I’ll need ECT. Thank you for caring. ❤
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You are welcome. I am happy your depression is improving. I pray it continues to improve. Take care. Love and hugs, Sue
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(((hugs)))
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I’m with you on this! Gotta stop the unhealthy snacking. We can do it! 🙂
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Yes we can. I have to do it The time is now. Well not quite yet…not today on Superbowl Sunday. I start tomorrow… tomorrow absolutely 1000000% for sure. Have a great day. Much love, Sue
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Great poem.
We don’t have a scale in the house so that takes away my obsession over the actual pounds.
Weight one way or the other is a struggle and always has been though. I think so many could relate to your poem in just body image.
If I had had chips I would have eaten the whole bag I can tell you that!
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Thank you. I am happy you liked my poem. Yesterday was the Superbowl and I did have my pizza and pop, but I didn’t have any salsa to go with my tortilla chips, so I skipped the chips at least. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you kind and encouraging comments. Hugs, Sue
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Hello! I would love for u to follow my blog. I am on a weight loss journey myself and sometimes encouragement and help from people going through siimilar things helps aide in becoming a better you!
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Thank you for finding me. I’m following your blog now. I love your recipes and your idea. I’m very happy to join you. I need all the help, support and encouragement I can get. Yay. Here’s to happy weight loss. I’ve only just begun. I attempted months ago but became I’ll and now finally I am ready and determined to make it happen. Perfect timing. Thank you. I look forward to getting healthy together. 😊❤ Hugs, Sue
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Hi there! Im so happy you responded. I know just how challenging it can be to try everything and nothing work out. It’s harder than some ppl like to admit but thats the first step. And gaining will power. As for ur illness I’m sorry to hear that you weren’t well but even more reason for us to help each other feel better inside and out. First thing is first. How are you feeling today?
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