I woke up this morning feeling at peace as I woke up
in my very own bed,
in my very own bedroom,
in my very own house,
feeling happy knowing my daughter
was peacefully asleep upstairs
in her very own bed,
in her very own bedroom,
in our very own house,
and there were no strangers in our house when I woke up,
that I would later have to see, face and greet,
while we stood and waited in a very long line at a designated time to get our breakfast.
I did not have to wake up in a homeless shelter at the Salvation Army this morning,
like my youngest daughter and I had to do about ten years ago for over three months,while I had a severely fractured ankle.
Most people do not appreciate what they have, until it is gone.
That was true for myself, as well,
However, since I have faced many struggles and lost so much over the past twenty-five years of my life,
I appreciate my every breath of life and everything I have, much more than I ever did before.
I know how everything can be taken away in a heartbeat
and that nothing in life should ever be taken for granted.
One very small example is when it is time for my break after working four hours.
I am very happy for my break and can hardly wait to buy myself a well deserved treat.
After I put my money into the vending machine, my well deserved treat plops down making the most beautiful thumping sound I have ever heard.
I grab my nice beautiful perfect bottle of Diet Pepsi from the bottom of the vending machine, turn the cap and hear that whoosh sound the bottles makes as I open it.
As I take the cap off my bottle of Diet Pepsi, I eagerly anticipate that first nice cold refreshing drink and thoroughly enjoy every drink as it quenches my thirst.
It tastes so good to me and gives me that beautiful “aaaahhh…” moment I had been waiting for.
Even though I lost a lot because of my bipolar disorder, sometimes I think and feel like I have gained so much more than I ever could have before, so much more on a simpler, deeper and more spiritual level.
I appreciate waking up in the morning.
I appreciate when I can crawl out of bed.
I appreciate when I can take a shower.
I appreciate greatly that I am well enough to finally be able to work again, even at a part-time job as that is a huge accomplishment compared to twenty years ago.
I appreciate when I have money to buy food to make a good meal.
I appreciate that I am alive and that I have survived death.
I appreciate my children and my many other blessings in my life.
I appreciate dreams, hope, faith, love, life and most importantly God.
I appreciate that I woke up this morning feeling at peace as I woke up
in my very own bed
in my very own bedroom
in my very own house….
and I look forward to many more “aaahhhh…” moments in my life.
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