For over twenty years
my emotions were arid,
my life was empty,
void of meaning
not because of who I was,
but because bipolar
zapped away who I was.
me of my life
the way I once knew it.
Bipolar is a cruel beast
and a criminal of the worst kind
with powers you never knew could exist inside you.
They are not your own powers,
but unknown powers from within
you have no control over.
Bipolar overpowers you whenever it wants,
coming from an abyss from deep within you,
an unknown apocalypse world
you never knew could exist inside you,
stealing all your feelings and emotions
until you become void of all emotions
and thoughts of life and living.
You turn into a foreign carcass of the walking dead
barely able to walk or talk,
no longer capable of walking,
but instead shuffling about
like a walking dead zombie creature
you have never met before.
This new shuffling walking dead zombie creature
is actually who you have become
thanks to the dreadful bipolar beast
that came for a visit
living inside you
and becoming part
of your new
way of life…
for a while…
Never give up hope.
God has the power to heal and save me.
God saved my life and healed me to the point that He wanted to heal me.
God heals when He is ready to.
Be patient, never give up hope and keep persevering.
Even though I lived with severe bipolar symptoms for over twenty years and have had mental illness my entire life…
I am so blessed.
Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy!
God is good all the time.